Lana Del Ray sings ‘you hit me and it felt like a kiss’
So why, when his fist hit my gut did it not feel beautiful?
Florence and the Machine talk about a kiss with a fist being better than none…
So why, when his hand connected with my face did it not feel like heaven?
Jessie Reyez wrote ‘all your bullets felt like velvet’.
So why, when my hands traced my bruises did it not feel euphoric?
Why did my grazed knees feel like pain?
Why did his eyes fill with rage so insane?
What was I doing wrong to not experience this the same as the lyrics that filled my brain?
Was I insane to feel that if a kiss always came with a fist that I really didn’t want one at all?