la douleur exquise

I've sat staring at this empty screen for 20 minutes. Large cappuccino. Room fan on full. A unknown song plays (fall to water washed away, all that water washed away). Someone else's things surround me and this room is not mine. My hair is blonde now and I've put on a few pounds, my yellow …

Burning Man

I burned a man in a wheelbarrow at the bottom of my garden as flames scorched and blackened he smiled he smiled the same as he did the day we met he smiled the same as he did the day we first made love yeah, he smiled just the same no pain did cross his …

Janus

Autumn is breaking down While I'm still broken It all dies in the winter Yet I am already dead As my tears water my hopeful bones Nothing grows inside my head And I know That leaves turn golden And snow is always pure But my exposed and broken ribcage Is still holding all my hurt …

We Can’t Fly

dont let me get drunk here tonight dont let me get drunk here tonight I'ma fuck some shit up take out some blade tell some lie that it's fine I told you not to hide while I laid in your bed and cried fucked up and still whiskey couldn't take away the chill of your …

I Wrote A Book (update)

So, it’s happening! My book is becoming a reality. I’m actually going to see my book in print. Don’t get me wrong I still have a lot to do, images to select, edit and place, a few sections to thin down or bulk up but for the most part it is all coming together and …

Dopey

Confiding in me sat in KFC, the woman he had been dating had been hot and cold for weeks now. It was late, he had been working as usual, I still remember the look in his eyes as they searched my face for answers. "just get rid of her and pull yourself together" I advised, …

Mr Gluttony

In the eye of the storm, In the belly of the beast, You sat at my table,  You had food to eat, I stood there politely, I watched with blue eyes, You spat it back at me, Oh what a surprise, Now back in the kitchen,  I made something else, Laid it before you, Can't …

The Words – bathe

I bathe my bones in a bath of salt White foam bubbles through my teeth I wonder out to the place we met Sand and shells beneath my feet Seagulls cry above my head Sharks do circle around my waist I stand still in our meeting place Hollow eyes search for your face

The Book – i sank

This is a post about me, my right now. I took a break, or some may say I broke, maybe it’s both?  life got in the way or maybe it was a lack of life? Who knows, either way I needed to stop. Writing and putting this book together has not been easy, I dug …

The Words – hate me, please

Hate me Chew on my bones and spit me out  Make this easier for me You punish me with your kindness I know its love but hate me, please I punched a hole into your chest and ripped out your heart Are you not mad? Are you not bitter? As you tape your ribs back …