The Little Things

Car park views, cold coffee and grey skies Dry eyes for the longest time Chipped nails and a few extra pounds Smiles and laughter still surround Windowsill desk and no wall divide  No need for hearts to hide And it’s funny how we sweat the small stuff And let all the past ghosts haunt us …

I Am Ready

I am ready Breathing and alive Terrified Honestly, i’m still a little bit insane But the best people are right? Battle scarred from the car crash that is my life But i know you can’t drive Do I still need my seatbelt? Will I forget how the lows felt? A fighter all my life Will …

Warm Summer Rain

Everything going so well But my mind is playing tricks again That time of year again I'm falling into the well Of doubts and fears inside myself And I can't help but fear the end More than friends and more than hearts that mend He is warm summer rain Against my hollow frame Willing to …

la douleur exquise

I've sat staring at this empty screen for 20 minutes. Large cappuccino. Room fan on full. A unknown song plays (fall to water washed away, all that water washed away). Someone else's things surround me and this room is not mine. My hair is blonde now and I've put on a few pounds, my yellow …

What’s Left For a Lover?

If I could be in love with you My life would be ok But when you can't even love yourself What's left for a lover? Its probably always been you But right now everything around me is see-through Even you. And maybe I see my future held inside your ribs And maybe all my truths …

Stranger

You are a stranger At the end of the line, telling me not to apologise I'm a stranger Full of demons I know longer know how to hide Searching for a stranger Who still knows all of my secrets Praying to a stranger Still hoping they can keep it I can see a stranger looking …

Tornado Heart

you were a beautiful disaster created inside my tornado heart sorry to my lost lovers for the storm inside my arms I'd have held onto you closer if I knew that you'd survive I just hope you can forgive me and admit at least I tried

Casper

Ghosting. I've been ghosting all of you and all I can say is sorry. My readers, my friends and family, my past, my present and my future. Ghosting it all. I haven't posted in so many months that I almost forgot how to. Do I create one long post explaining the last few months of …

Janus

Autumn is breaking down While I'm still broken It all dies in the winter Yet I am already dead As my tears water my hopeful bones Nothing grows inside my head And I know That leaves turn golden And snow is always pure But my exposed and broken ribcage Is still holding all my hurt …

A Song For Lovers

(a new song I wrote) play me another tuneI'll be quiet in front of youjust one last melodybefore you goits been so long since I heard the soundof guitar strings playing outa song for the lovers, dearthat lasts a week a month a year.. play me another tuneI'll be quiet in front of youjust one …