We Can’t Fly

dont let me get drunk here tonight dont let me get drunk here tonight I'ma fuck some shit up take out some blade tell some lie that it's fine I told you not to hide while I laid in your bed and cried fucked up and still whiskey couldn't take away the chill of your …

One Last Moon

I quit smoking for three days but I missed the moon too much somehow a 20pack brings me closer to you when I stand inside the night and I close my eyes I can hear the pheasants calling feel you next to me in the chill night air and I remember everything I choose to …

The First Snow

The tire tracks his car had left upon my drive were still there by morning, I cried at the sight of them as I smoked a morning cigarette and drank my coffee. I didn't feel the morning chill clawing at my dressing gown nor did I acknowledge the pounding in my head as the headache …

A Million Places

For me one of the worst parts of a break up isn't necessarily the break up part itself but the aftermath! Dont get me wrong I mean, all of the crying and the loneliness and the alcohol numbing, ice cream eating binges are always awful but it's the part after that I hate, the part …

Did you notice?

The whites of my teeth show happiness I think. Everyone's too vacent to notice the big sink hole. Sinking down a deep hole maybe it's my life goal. Happiness is my biggest mystery And I wonder, was it really ever meant for me? See, I never understood how anybody could be so delirious, mysterious is …

The Words – you wanted to

You wanted to hit me like a sledgehammer For it to force me to feel something You wanted to break my spine But I still feel nothing You wanted the news to sting my ears For it to make me give a shit You wanted to invade my mind But I still avoid the hit …

The Words – black widow

Yes, I did it paint me red Turn the light on let them come A criminal in every sense A shark A snake Scum You crowned me the king of ice Because I didn’t feel a thing Not Regret nor Love nor shame A cheat A beast King He’s the best I ever had And …

The Words – feathers and teeth

Once I watched a man Let his dog Kill a crow Feathers and teeth And a sound I can’t escape  Our love is like that crow Our hate is like that dog And the sounds I can’t escape Are my words As they leave my mouth

The Water’s Edge

sometimes we hide behind fake truths, am I faking my truth? Right now as a single gay man I am loving life, I can have casual sex and just leave the next day without any attachment, extra baggage or even a name, I have no one to answer to, the whole bed to myself, no …

The Story – cheating on me

His phone left my hand and landed on the bed next to his sleeping head, my mind gave me no time to care what the weather was doing and my eyes wouldn’t let me focus on the clothes I was throwing on my back, my hand let go of the door handle, it slammed louder …