la douleur exquise

I've sat staring at this empty screen for 20 minutes. Large cappuccino. Room fan on full. A unknown song plays (fall to water washed away, all that water washed away). Someone else's things surround me and this room is not mine. My hair is blonde now and I've put on a few pounds, my yellow …

Burning Man

I burned a man in a wheelbarrow at the bottom of my garden as flames scorched and blackened he smiled he smiled the same as he did the day we met he smiled the same as he did the day we first made love yeah, he smiled just the same no pain did cross his …

Tornado Heart

you were a beautiful disaster created inside my tornado heart sorry to my lost lovers for the storm inside my arms I'd have held onto you closer if I knew that you'd survive I just hope you can forgive me and admit at least I tried

Janus

Autumn is breaking down While I'm still broken It all dies in the winter Yet I am already dead As my tears water my hopeful bones Nothing grows inside my head And I know That leaves turn golden And snow is always pure But my exposed and broken ribcage Is still holding all my hurt …

A Song For Lovers

(a new song I wrote) play me another tuneI'll be quiet in front of youjust one last melodybefore you goits been so long since I heard the soundof guitar strings playing outa song for the lovers, dearthat lasts a week a month a year.. play me another tuneI'll be quiet in front of youjust one …

Skipsea

Night time is creeping in, 8:18pm.Sat alone with my fake Malibu and tropical mix, cigarillos at hand and headphones on.The most beautiful songs in the world playlist playing in my ears, (one of the only playlists I had already downloaded before coming here.Still no signal no matter what I try or where I walk to …

Against The Tide

Cleansing sea wash over meSkin scrubbed away by wind whipped sandAm I new again?Reborn and reset?Will the memories of you pour out of my mindlike salt sea from my ears?Will my heart restart from the poundingwaves against my chest?No longer a dead man floating at the mercy of life'swaters but alive and swimming against the …

77 days

Absent for 77 days. Damn that's a long time! I wish I had a better excuse than the ones I'm about to make but quite frankly, I don't. Talk about writers block...I guess it wasn't a case of not having anything to say but yet having too much to say. So much so that it …

Luminous Blue

Cotton ball clouds linger, frozen within luminous blue the sun and the moon share the sky and I'm somewhere in between springtime the sun is golden as it illuminates every new leaf on the trees I'm wearing yellow, waiting for my heart to glow like the trees but I'm not there just yet I'm waiting …

One Last Moon

I quit smoking for three days but I missed the moon too much somehow a 20pack brings me closer to you when I stand inside the night and I close my eyes I can hear the pheasants calling feel you next to me in the chill night air and I remember everything I choose to …